It occurred to me tonight what regret actually is....

Regret is those things that you wish you could change now, but can't. Regret is those thinsg that you wish you did, but didn't. Regret is one of those things that you did but wish you had not done... Regret is those opportunities that you didn't take when you should have... said those things but didn't... Regret is different to everybody... it does not have the same connotation to everybody... what one person regrets, another might not... .

Now many say that regret is something you shouldn't have but it's human nature to do so. You may feel sorry for the things that you've done to hurt others, but you may also feel as though it's made you a better person overall. The only person who can fully decide what the outcome of the actions taken is you, not anybody else. It's not what your best friend thinks, or the random stranger on the street... it's what you decide is the effect is...

I know most say that you shouldn't focus on the past, because it won't get you anywhere, and you can't change what has happened... but the rememberance of the past is something that may help you with your current struggles... Possibly having an influence on what action you decide to take now.... I know this from experience.... the old addage, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" is somewhat relevant in the meaning that not doing something one time, gives you the needed courage to not do the same thing again... nobody said it'd be any easier... but if you can do it once, you can do it again... but this also has the other edge of the sword.... continuing on an action that may not necessarily be what you want, also aides in continuing to do that same action... which can have a negative impact and may not be the healthiest thing... to each his own...

oh well... my incoherent rambling for today...

P.S. PB: Everything will be OK... believe me it'll get better for you...

Stories of the week have been posted here

Well, today was Jewel's last day at the library.... sort of sad... it's been over two years.... well, two years and 4 months.... Jewel correct me if I'm wrong... but I've learnt a bunch about her, and her family in that time... she's headed to better paying job... I think at some of my urging... only because she can't stay at the library forever... there really isn't much movement available....I wonder who we'll get to take her position... because you can't really replace her.... then again you can't really replace anybody....

Stories of the week #14 has been posted... go here to read them..

well today I bought a new hard drive for my laptop, it's a bit faster... 5400RPM instead of 4200RPM... it's also 80Gigabytes... so I'll have more storage space.... I'm putting both windows and linux on this thing... so we'll see how that goes... I'm not really sure which version of linux to put on it yet... I'm thinking I want one that I can use for Pentesting... but I don't know which one yet....

Well... today was interesting at work... I was out at Eola and children's reference informed me that a dead body was found at the Park District end of the building.... he was found in a car... he was patron, because the police returned his library book... there will probably be a story in tomorrow's paper... so I might actually read it... but we'll see...

Stories of the week have been posted... go here to read them....

Ok... I just saw a Digg.com story about a security breach at Western... 180,000+ affected students and faculty.... now... I don't have the details (which doesn't suprise me)... they wouldn't want to have the details exposed... but from the comments, it's the Bookstore / Union Hotel.... now my question is why haven't these universities, with so much information taken stricter security measures previously? I mean, I know damn well how hard it is to fully secure anything... it's not a just set and forget thing... it's a constant moving, adapting, and re-evaluating.... but this is just an ignorant thing to ignore with so much data and information stored....

oh well... eventually nothing will be secure.... but we'll still try....

I've posted this week's stories of the week Here

I haven't had a chance to pull up all of the stories of the week for this week... so I will do it tomorrow at some point.... I'll also probably post on the Billy Joel Musical as well...